[ turning around comes with more than one upside for shiro. with his gaze now focused on a nonjudgmental couch back, keith doesn't relax exactly, but he feels less seen in his embarrassment and that... counts for something. at least this way, throwing out the suggestion that they close their eyes and sleep feels like a respectably mature option rather than a skittish escape attempt.
but evidently, it isn't just keith who feels the need to explain himself, shiro does too.
it's been a long time. shiro has been saying that a lot, but largely caught up in his own head, the puzzle pieces don't quite fall into place until after that second part. and you're attractive...? the questioning tone does more to convince keith of shir's confusion than his apparent attractiveness, but the sentiment still leaves him mentally reeling.
it's been a long time ... not just since shiro was able to care about someone else, but also since he had someone to be intimate with, right? or at least, a long time since shiro had someone like adam in his life -- a person to come home to, hold and...
a squirmy, wriggly feeling in his belly interrupts the thought, and keith gives himself a vigorous mental shake. it's weird to be imagining his best friend being that way with another guy. more relevantly, shiro is lonely. as much as keith wants to relate, it's hard to know what missing a relationship like that must be like when he's never had a connection on that level.
hell. if the mere premise that shiro can look at him and think "attractive" is unbelievable, just how stunted is he? a laugh threatens to bubble out of him, though keith couldn't even say why. is it normal to go through a near-death experience and come out wondering what being with someone could be like?
feeling more delirious by the second, keith gives into that urge to laugh, though it comes out more like a quiet huff. ]
I know you're not hitting on me. We're like brothers and all. [ a beat. ] ... I guess I just didn't know you felt lonely. I mean, I know you miss home and all the people you haven't seen in ages, but... in terms of boyfriends and stuff.
i am just going to keep my eyes closed
but evidently, it isn't just keith who feels the need to explain himself, shiro does too.
it's been a long time. shiro has been saying that a lot, but largely caught up in his own head, the puzzle pieces don't quite fall into place until after that second part. and you're attractive...? the questioning tone does more to convince keith of shir's confusion than his apparent attractiveness, but the sentiment still leaves him mentally reeling.
it's been a long time ... not just since shiro was able to care about someone else, but also since he had someone to be intimate with, right? or at least, a long time since shiro had someone like adam in his life -- a person to come home to, hold and...
a squirmy, wriggly feeling in his belly interrupts the thought, and keith gives himself a vigorous mental shake. it's weird to be imagining his best friend being that way with another guy. more relevantly, shiro is lonely. as much as keith wants to relate, it's hard to know what missing a relationship like that must be like when he's never had a connection on that level.
hell. if the mere premise that shiro can look at him and think "attractive" is unbelievable, just how stunted is he? a laugh threatens to bubble out of him, though keith couldn't even say why. is it normal to go through a near-death experience and come out wondering what being with someone could be like?
feeling more delirious by the second, keith gives into that urge to laugh, though it comes out more like a quiet huff. ]
I know you're not hitting on me. We're like brothers and all. [ a beat. ] ... I guess I just didn't know you felt lonely. I mean, I know you miss home and all the people you haven't seen in ages, but... in terms of boyfriends and stuff.